“Um, excuse me dear ‘pregnancy glow’ are you just a figment of people’s imagination or do you only visit certain people? Because I think you’ve skipped over me this time.” Instead, I’m super exhausted and looking pretty raggedy; however, no complaints here, because God is giving us one of the greatest gifts ever. Life.
Baby V is the size of a Clementine orange! Crazy to think that’s what I have inside of me right now. We’ve been reading on what’s happening with them at the moment, currently little ones figure out how to swallow, which develops their gut. To know how intricately we’re all made, it blows my mind what God has created. It truly is a miracle.
Other aspects of the pregnancy, I’ve been feeling meh, but I think that comes with the territory. Sleepless nights, headaches, and exhaustion are the biggest symptoms at the moment, along with a side of all day sickness that comes and goes. It’s like a ninja, you don’t see it coming and you never know when it’s going to strike, then quickly sneaks away again. I joke, but it’s really weird feeling. I’ve had pregnancy symptoms in the past, but this time it’s different. It again, just solidifies how intricately we are all made.
We continue to pray that Baby Vinson is doing good, kicking butt in there and growing strong. We haven’t had any other appointments and will not be back for a couple more weeks. Which is a little bitter sweet to me. We are approaching on our longest lasting pregnancy yet, but in the back of my mind there is that lingering thought of what’s going to happen, when will things go awry? Obviously, we hope not, but we can’t spend every waking minute worrying about what’s to come. I have constantly reminded to put my trust in God, believe in His plan, and go along His path. I keep saying, You’ve got this, when in reality, He’s got this (THANKFULLY!) And for this I’m so incredibly thankful. WHAT could possibly be better than knowing that God has this all in his hands.
I think back to moments of struggle of my faith, my relationship with husband and friends, and it all boils down to me not trusting God’s way. With support from others and seeking out strength in the Lord, I’ve really been able to find some peace in those past moments and the downs that we don’t foresee just yet. So, who cares about the “glow,” what matters is letting go of the anxiety, fear, and worrying about the unknown and relying on what Jesus has in mind for us. So I’ll just be over here not glowing… 🙂 but patiently waiting in peace.